Receiving

Nice note from my therapist

“When you want to grip on for dear life, consider holding your hands open to receive”

I’ve been calling in community around me. It’s been a year of living here in Sacramento and it’s been so much easier on my heart. Love overwhelms me to witness what happens when we move towards what is calling us. I wanted to grip onto what I knew and what I thought I should want in San Luis Obispo. But it made me sadder and more heartbroken. I let go and moved to a place where I felt joy and curiosity, again.

Now, a year later, I’m feeling my grief of friends moving on with their lives. And I’m still craving community in a new place. The in-between is so painful. As I grip onto the relationships that held me at a different version of me, I feel stuck in the cocoon.

My therapist said, ‘what would happen if you focus on being ready? Can you hold your hands open to receive, rather than holding onto an old version of your life with a death grip?’

I think I can do that. I think I can send out the beacon. While carefully taking aligned actions with how I want to feel and exist in this next chapter. It’s so easy to fall into old ways of being, they are habitual.

I’m happy to report, I sent out the beacon. And quite divinely, beautiful souls are fluttering into my life. Who knows the longevity, but the impact is profound. I’m home.